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Friday, April 29, 2011

It's been too long...

It has been a long while since I've had a chance to update. I typically did 80% of my posting while I was at work. I had a lot of down time due to either lack of work, or just some spare time while projects were being transferred from one computer to the other or processed. Anyway.....I've actually been really swamped at work. My job responsibilities got switched around a bit, so I have a lot more work. Meaning...I have less time. Then when I got home, there wasn't much time. Peter has a much better work schedule now so I see him more, and we have more time to go out and do things. Not to mention it's playoff season in hockey, and I don't just enjoy watching my home team play....I watch as much of each series as I can. Believe me, I don't want to go this long again without updating or being online. I opened my email to over a thousand messages. Granted, they were practically all from subscriptions from FetLife, but still. Sifting through everything took a while. I ended up deciding to just not catch up on FetLife, there was just far too much for me to read.

So let's get on, shall we?

My birthday....well, it was terrible. Peter and I met some of my friends for sushi to celebrate. Unfortunately, I had developed a horrible migraine (the kind that makes you sick). So I never got to eat my sushi, and I had to cut the night short. I felt so bad since everyone took the time to come out. Peter had promised me my birthday spankings that night, but I got sick again almost as soon as we got home. Obviously, my spankings were not going to happen. That didn't happen for almost a week after my birthday. Sir made sure I got the spanking I deserved. He had me bend over, and tuck my arms between my legs. Sir then tied my arms to my legs, then admired my ass for a moment. He gave it a few swats with his hands before going back to the case with all of our toys and stuff in it. He pulled out my ball gag, and proceeded to fasten it to my head. Sir continued with his hand only briefly before grabbing the flogger. As I've said before, being flogged is probably my favorite thing. Back before I met Sir and had only done slightly more than vanilla things, I was a huge fan of being spanked. Now I know better. The flogging went on for quite a while, it is almost a comfortable feeling to be flogged. I can tell now that He works harder to use more force with the flogger, and it feels so good. He switched to the pinwheel (the single one), and ran that up and down my back in quick, long drags. I cried out a few times before he stopped. His next tool of choice is my least favorite of the toys; the wooden paddle. It's not just the sound of it hitting my skin that I don't enjoy...it's the feeling. It hurts, and not necessarily the good kind of hurt. But I take it, because I know He enjoys it. And it's not like it hurts enough for me to stop him. I know my limits, and I know that if it became too much I would let him know. I suppose I could say I partially enjoy the wooden paddle because I know He does. He liked it even more that night because I kept pulling away (the ropes were coming lose...he had put them on so fast, they weren't very secure), and when I did, He would pull me back and give my ass a more powerful smack. Then with one incredibly forceful swat, tears shot from my eyes from the pain. It was a very "I'm in charge" kind of spank. Which turned me on. If you're new to this blog, I know what you're thinking...that doesn't make sense. I take a punishment from a tool I don't particularly enjoy, then I cry from the pain, and all of this ends with me being even more turned on? Yeah. Kinda weird, but that's just how it works with me sometimes. He told me "one more good one, and then I'll stop", so I braced myself. This blow wasn't nearly as painful as the last, but it was still pretty powerful. Sir rubbed my ass when he was done, feeling the heat from my skin. He grabbed the other pinwheel and drug it across my skin. When he was pleased with that, he smacked my ass a few times with his hand before moving onto the bed and pushing himself inside of me. Running his hands across my ass and admiring his work while He fucked me, He seemed pleased. After a while, He pulled the ropes off and took my gag out before flipping me over onto my back. He moved over me, telling me I was being such a good girl and allowed me to cum while He fucked me. He held me down and the orgasm shook my entire body, my cunt tightened around his cock. He exploded inside of me with some force before collapsing on top of me.

A few days later, Master had His way with me again. No toys or rope this time. He only made me bend over the bed and used His hands. Sir took to only my left butt-cheek the entire time he smacked it. After we had finished having sex, he mentioned how a mark had already started to show. It was small, dark red, and only slightly visible since the rest of my ass was bright red from all the smacks. By the next day, the mark was as big as his hand and dark red. It's been about a week since I got the mark and a little bit of it is still visible.

Last night Peter came home from having dinner with a couple of his friends, and he was a little intoxicated. Just a slight buzz, but it was obvious and cute. He was all smiles and everything. Out of nowhere he blurted out "I want to cum in your mouth". I busted out laughing because it was so random, and he was so "pass me the remote" about it with his tone. Once I calmed down from laughing, we began to make out like teenagers and he took to biting my neck (he's been very bitey lately) before we took our little show to the bedroom. Sir told me to get on my knees and sucks his cock. I started off slow. Apparently he didn't want it slow because he grabbed hold of my head by my hair, and began to skull fuck me. Faster and deeper until I gagged on his cock. He told me to get to the bed so he could fuck my cunt. I was a little nervous because the night before, we fucked and I had a little bit of pain at first (but since I had no pain when we switched positions I figured it was just the angle he was fucking me at). I was right, it didn't hurt at all. My wet cunt welcomed his size and squeezed tightly around him. I didn't think this was going to be much of a dominance thing until he started fucking me with more force, and reached to pull me up so he could wrap his hands around my neck. He kept stopping to make me kneel before him and let him fuck my mouth some more. Each time he would tell me to bend over the bed again, he would push my torso onto the bed, effectively slamming my face against the piled up sheets. Sir reached down to my clit and rubbed until I came, squirting all over the carpet (which we just recently had cleaned....woops). I begged for his cum. He pulled on my shoulders again to bring me back up so he could grab hold of my neck once more. He slapped my face, called me his little slut, made me cum again, squirting once more before turning me over onto my back. He pulled out when he came, not soon enough to make it to my mouth. My stomach was covered though, and so was his hand. He had me lick his hand clean, and wiped some from my stomach and had me lick his hand clean once more before he went to get a rag so I could finish cleaning myself up.

Although Peter now has a normal work schedule, we still don't have a whole lot of time to play. Right now, we are so busy doing other things we weren't able to do when he was working all the time. Hopefully all that will settle down soon. That, or we try to just work in some play time during our busy lives. I know after the playoffs are over some time will be freed up. We actually have tickets to a playoff game here next week. Luckily our team made it to round two (they swept the Coyotes in the first round). Ok, now I'm going off topic. I should probably start making my lunch. There isn't a whole lot of work to do today, but I plan to eat at my desk and get caught up on the other blogs I follow and forums I read.

I promise I will try to update more. Even if it's just a little here or a little there. And don't forget, you can feel free to ask me questions on Formspring. Hope everyone is doing well!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

You arrive at a party you thought was vanilla, but as you walk in, you see the kinkiest thing you've never done & wanted to on the left. To the right, you see the thing you love doing or have done to you the most. Which way would you pick & what is it?

This was a really difficult question for me to answer (as you know since it has taken me soo long to answer), but I believe I finally have an answer.

I think as long as it was in a completely controlled environment, and Peter was there to do it....I would do the thing I've never done but always wanted to try. And that would be electro play. We both really want to try it, and I've never even tested any of the toys for that out before, but I really want to. I'm betting if the tools were there, then someone would know how to properly use the equipment and walk Sir through it (if he needed any assistance that is). Now, I might need to get warmed up before trying the new thing (especially if I wasn't aware of it being a fetish party, and wasn't mentally prepared for it). So there is a chance I would start off with a light caning and have that gradually grow to my normal level of tolerance before going to the new thing. Though who knows, maybe the fact of doing it at a party with other people might be enough to get me from zero to ready without a caning session (but I honestly wouldn't know for sure since I've never been to one).

Ultimately though, I would want to do the new kink.

Thank you for the question!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Why "Kai" as a pseudonym?

Honestly....I just liked the way it flowed with "tied up...". Sorry if you were expecting a more significant or profound answer.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

What is the best movie you've seen this year?

That would be a tie between Scott Pilgrim vs. The World and Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1. Both were excellent in their own ways.

Stingy or thuddy?

Oooh...if this is in reference to sounds (which if it isn't, I apologize, that just seems to be where my mind is right now) that is quite an excellent question! Difficult to answer, but excellent! Hmm....I would have to say....thuddy. The flogger that my Master uses has some weight to it, and makes this great thud when it hits my back. Iit just sends shivers all over my body, I can't get enough of it!

Do you skew younger or older in your partners?

Older for sure. I have accidentally become attracted to men in the past that I eventually found out were a year or so younger than me, but older has always been what felt right for me.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Pleasure for Him

It's been a minute, so I'll make a quick update.

Health-wise....I'm doing better. I finished taking my antibiotics on Friday, so I figure I'll give it an extra day or two for the irritation from the yeast infection to clear up before I start freaking out (apparently they can take up to a week to go away, even with medication). So we'll see. If it doesn't clear up by the end of the week, I'll be getting my ass to a doctor first thing Monday morning. I just hope I can find somewhere that is good, but also really inexpensive.

I'm really excited for Christmas this year. I didn't get Master anything kinky like I did for his birthday, though one of the gifts could be used for fun I suppose. Hmm....I still have a few more days. I can't really afford it, but I would like to get him something fun. Ahh...Maybe I'll get lucky and I'll get something fun from the Kinky Santa on FetLife. They allowed you to ask for three things. I asked for a Multi-Cuff Wrist Suspension Cuffs, an Apprentice Violet Wand Kit, or a Royal Pains (in the Butt) Set. The wand kit I know Master has been wanting to try, but they are awfully expensive. As for the Royal Pain set, that is a set of canes.....all that I would be more than happy to take a beating with from Master (and I believe he's been wanting more canes). The cuffs are more for the appeal of me I believe. I have always wanted to be suspended, and these would be so comfortable and perfect. I just hope I am chosen to win. They are giving away $15,000 in gifts away, and if I'm not mistaken you only get one. My first choice was the cuffs, then the wand, and the canes are third. So....cross your fingers for me!

I know He is really excited for me to heal. He really wants to fuck me, and I can't wait for him to be able to. Since I couldn't over the weekend, I just pleased him. He made me go down on him a few times, but he made it worth my while. There were times when he would pull my head up and kiss me, then he'd twist and pinch my nipples while he rubbed himself before forcing my head back down onto his cock. I hate that my jaw has a tendency to close up and start to hurt because it makes me have to switch back and forth between mouth and hands. It's annoying for me, and I can only imagine that it sucks for Him (especially if he's getting close, or it just feels really good). The second time he had me do it, I actually wasn't in the mood at all, and really didn't feel like it. But I did because that's what a slave does. I ended up getting into it which is typical, so no harm done. I swallowed each time like always. Peter said if I ever don't want to, he would be alright with me going to spit it out. That is really nice of him because I'm sure there would be times when I don't want to, but those would be rare. Even if I don't want to, I still try because I know it will please him (though I'm sure now as long as I'm happy, he'll be pleased). Except the hardcore play sessions. Those don't happen unless I am totally into it, and if I'm that into it....I will take it as it comes (pun intended).

I think that's all for now. Hopefully I'll have something crazy to write about soon! Thanks for the comments! Keep 'em coming! Oh, and don't forget, if you have a question and you want to ask anonymously or not, ask me on Formspring!

Hope everyone has a lovely holiday!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Was 2010 a good or bad year for you? Why? What are you hoping for in 2011?

2010 was not a particularly good year, but it wasn't terrible. I've dealt with bad news, deaths in the family, medical issues of my own, depression from all sides....this year has been hell. That being said, I did meet Peter this year, and that is something spectacular by itself. Cheesy, I know, but it's the truth. He has me completely smitten.

In 2011, I really just want things to get better. Yes, that's vague. I would really like to find a new job. One that pays a little better, is full time, and will give me medical benefits (and not being in a snowy state would be even better). I also hope that if I make enough money, I would be able to help my family out with their bills. I know that is not my job, but I have this need to help the ones I love. And if I can, then I will. I guess what I really want is just for a better year than this one was.

Thanks for all the questions! ^_^

Friday, December 10, 2010

biggest item you've taken anally?

Honestly, Peter's cock. We've never put anything else in there (except a finger, and once before a vibrator), and I am just fine with that. I really don't want anything else all up in my area, except maybe a plug. Peter wants to get me one so that we can properly train my ass, but who knows when we'll actually get around to doing that.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Do you have a holiday wish?

Honestly....I think I would wish for things in general to get better for my parents. They are dealing with so much right now, and it's just really hard on them.

I do as much as I can to help, but there is only so much I can do.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

If you could spend a day as a man, what would you do? Or would you do anything different from your normal routine?

Honestly, I would probably masturbate and just play with myself in general for half the day. That way when I go back to being a girl, I would know some things that feel really good for my man.

I think I would also enjoy trying to pee while standing. Typical, I know..but I've always wondered. haha.

What is the one question you would love to ask someone but never had the guts to?

I really have no idea. I've been thinking about this question since I read it yesterday. I can't really come up with an answer. Maybe I'll revisit it another time if I think of something. For now, I'm sorry.

Friday, November 19, 2010

I saw that you are into comics. What are your favorites? Are you into any web comics, as well?

I'm actually really picky about my comics. I can't read a comic if I don't like the art. It's far too distracting for me. So I actually read far less than I would if I could get past the art issue.

I read old Spider-Man, Metalocolypse, I just picked up a Doctor Who book that I can't wait to read, I have some iZombie comics that I have yet to read, but I'll get around to it eventually.

As for web comics, a friend of mine has a forum that has feeds from Cyanide & Happiness, XKCD, and Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal. I've also read Real Life Comics, but it's been a while since I've been able to read that. I got really behind at one point, and it's quite a task playing catch up. haha.

I enjoyed how you answered the question on polyamory, just thought I'd say that. You mentioned enjoying educating yourself on sexual matters, what fetishes are you most curious to know about?

I can't really think of any one thing specifically. I mean...I'm still learning more about electro play. And also trying to figure out which type of wand would I be most comfortable with. It's a long process...Basically what ends up happening is I read a post on Fetlife (usually from the submissive women's group), and then all the replies to it. If I feel myself still curious on the matter, I'll usually google it and do as much reading as I can.

For instance...Since Peter and I began our relationship and talked about kinks and the like, one thing he had mentioned was candle wax. I never figured there was anything to it. I figured it was "ok, let's light this candle I happen to have in my room and drip wax on your body". I never knew the differences in waxes and how the color or style of candle effects the temperature of the wax when it drips. Not until I read a post about one submissive using one of those lotion candles and giving her review on them for wax play. That's when I got curious, and started to look up wax types, and anything relating to wax play.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Polyamory...do you think it's workable, realistic, desirable or ridiculous?

For me personally, it's not something I desire. I've tried just casually dating multiple people at once, and it was stressful, and confusing at times....it's just not something I could handle. Me being the type of person I am, I felt guilty if I spent more time with one than the other. And when it came down to anything intimate (I am being careful with words because I was not sleeping with all parties involved), I just found myself comparing them. Which I suppose could have been a good thing if I were to start anything serious with any of them, but it wasn't healthy. Actually, in the particular instance I am thinking of, none of those relationships worked out. A couple got jealous, while the others didn't seem to care (even though nothing serious had even been established). Being a very sexual person, I see the draw to it. Some people would say they get bored having sex with the same person all the time, so they may believe by having multiple partners (all being ok with this), they have less of a chance to get bored. For me, I know it just means that I was not with the right person. I figured there would eventually be someone that I would not be bored with (even when we weren't kinking it up). Trial and error. It's a time consuming, tedious process, but it works.

In general, I wouldn't say it's not workable or realistic. I'm sure there are plenty of people who manage to make that sort of relationship work for them. Funny, I enjoy educating myself on all things sexual (mainly fetishes) and yet I am not that familiar with how others deal with this sort of thing. I have known friends to have open relationships or marriages, but that aspect of the relationship not working out that well.

Honestly, if you have the right mindset about it, I believe it is possible to make it work. I would think you would have to be very open minded and comfortable with yourself, and in turn not get jealous easily. And as long as you can manage your time and energy between the people involved, it can work. I'm not saying it wouldn't be hard, stressful, or emotionally draining because I'm sure it would be. You would just have to really prepare yourself for what you're getting into.

Seeing that I have no successful experience in this department (and really have no desire to try it again), it's pretty much all guess work for me. I can't really say it's ridiculous though. I really can only say that I believe it is not for me.

I hope I answered your question and didn't ramble too much (which I am prone to do).

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

New ball gag!

Peter was having a crummy day yesterday, and asked if I would be able to come over after work. We both actually had been having shitty days, so we went right out to dinner to vent our stresses to each other. I had been wanting to go to Adam and Eve for a while, so after dinner we took the trip. We looked around and found a few things we wanted. I couldn't decide between two things to buy though; a butt plug (Peter has been wanting to get me one for some time to train my ass for his cock), or a ball gag. He had bought a ball gag before, but never used it. We tried it once, but it was too big for me to keep in my mouth for a period longer than a couple minutes. I've had jaw issues since I was in junior high school (thanks to a dumb giant gumball that I tried to chew all at once and messed the plates in my jaw up), so I can't keep it open too far for too long without closing it. So giving Peter oral sex isn't horribly difficult, as long as I can take him out for a moment, close my jaw, then go back to it. So a smaller gag was what we needed to get. I couldn't decide, so I had him choose. He decided on the gag. He plans to have people over next week for his birthday, and one of my friends might be staying the night  (because we have somewhere to be early the next day). Peter's thinking was if she did, we could use the gag and try to muffle me (since we obviously will be having sex). So I ended up getting the gag ball, as well as a cute little pair of shinny royal blue panties to match my black and blue corset (I'll post pictures of them together once blogspot is done with their maintenance). They're one size fits all, and I am not a twig by any stretch, plus I have a big bottom. Luckily they fit. They're snug, but they fit, and when Master asked me to try them on when we got back, he was really enjoying the view. He also enjoy spanking me with his bare hands. He was hitting pretty hard, and we were both just loving it. I love random weekday sex, especially when it involves choking, spanking, smacking, and just.....uh! So amazing. He eventually got a call from his dad about some computer issue. While he was talking, I started to check out my new gag ball. When he got off the phone, he put it on me and made me wear it for about 10 minutes. We laid there in silence for a while, then he started to spank me. I realized it is difficult to swallow when I'm bent over (something I'm going to have to learn how to do), though it was easier when I was on my back (and Master was smacking my breasts). After the 10 minutes were up, he asked how I liked it and if my jaw was alright. My jaw was fine, just a smidge sore, so it's something we'll have to practice with a lot. I'm excited for that.

His birthday is next week. I think I finally decided on what to get him. A couple new toys (like real toys, not kink toys), and then as for the kink toy....I'm torn between a riding crop and a three-wheel Wartenberg wheel (he wants one so bad). I think I will finish my shopping tomorrow since I don't have anything to do. His work schedule got messed up again. I won't get to see him again until Friday night, and even then....he'll have to wake me up (he won't get home until after midnight, and I'll have to be up for work the next morning by 7). Should be interesting.


Oh! I started noticing a trend on some other slave blogs I've been reading of having a formspring account so that people can ask them questions. So, if anyone has questions ask me here: http://www.formspring.me/tiedupkai

 For easy access to any of my contact links, I'm starting to list them up on the side bar on the right. Enjoy!