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I was never the kind of girl that really liked porn. I just didn't see the point in watching it. I would rather use my imagination to get off on my own. Then once I started dating, and becoming sexually active, porn became something different. It almost felt like the enemy. Boys I would date seemed to be more interested in porn than having sex with me. Which of course made me think there was something wrong with me. I have never really been a small girl, but I do try to take care of myself so I don't feel so gross. But even at my smallest (somewhere in the mid to low-130's), my partner and I rarely had sex, and he pleased himself instead. I eventually decided I was ok with a boyfriend jerking it to porn, as long as he could still keep up with my sex drive. With Peter, I am incredibly lucky. I'm sure he still pleases himself with porn, but I can't think of a time he has ever said no to sex every time I ask (except maybe when one of us wasn't feeling well). I have seen more porn since I've been with Peter than I have in my entire life. Mostly for the sake of educating myself on things, or to see certain tools in action. And actually, they aren't even full porns. Just little clips others post on their blogs and such. Or some of the tumblr pages I visit via the people I follow on Twitter, they post a lot of pictures. And I must say, some of them are very inspiring! Gives me a lot of good ideas to try someday with Peter if we ever get the chance (or tools).
The other night, Peter came home from work and said he had an idea for the night. He suggested that we search for a porn to watch together. I was ready for this, I had mentioned doing this with him at some point, but we never found a good time to do it. We usually would start having sex and at some point in the middle the idea would flash in my brain for a second, then be gone because really...by that point, there was no point for it. So we started looking. We found one on the kinky side, and began to download it, but decided to watch one of the ones he already had just to try it out. I can't remember the name of it or anything, but it was alright. The man in the scene was rather creepy, but I did my best to get past that. Ten minutes in or so, it wasn't doing anything for me. Peter was touching me, but I was distracted by the woman in the video. Her noises were incredibly forced, and starting to get on my nerves. I eventually had to ask Peter if she was the only woman on the entire disk because I couldn't take it anymore. He flipped forward a bit and found a different scene. I ended up not paying any attention to is since he started to have me suck his cock. By then, I really wasn't thinking about the video too much, just the light moans coming from Peter. He motioned for me to bend over so he could fuck me. I was having trouble reaching my peak the whole time. I had just gotten over some sort of stomach bug or something, and it was still in the process of feeling better. I was so afraid of something not so pleasant happening if I came, that it kind of just ruined the night for me in that regard. Which, Peter fixed for me last night when he allowed me to have several orgasms.
We plan to try it again. The more kinky one we found finished downloading yesterday, so that is in the future for us. We were supposed to play this past Saturday. But, of course, a few hours before he was to come home from work I became very ill with whatever stomach virus I had (and continued to have until Monday night). He has to work twelve hours on Saturday, so maybe I can talk him into some fun either tonight, or tomorrow before he goes to work. Or maybe not, since it seems every time I try to plan something it never works out that way. Which is why I really haven't been updating. There hasn't been a whole lot slave-related to talk about. I doubt anyone who reads this actually wants to hear me bitch about my days in general.
Hope you all are doing well! I will keep updating as much as I can! Please don't forget about me. <3
The other night, Peter came home from work and said he had an idea for the night. He suggested that we search for a porn to watch together. I was ready for this, I had mentioned doing this with him at some point, but we never found a good time to do it. We usually would start having sex and at some point in the middle the idea would flash in my brain for a second, then be gone because really...by that point, there was no point for it. So we started looking. We found one on the kinky side, and began to download it, but decided to watch one of the ones he already had just to try it out. I can't remember the name of it or anything, but it was alright. The man in the scene was rather creepy, but I did my best to get past that. Ten minutes in or so, it wasn't doing anything for me. Peter was touching me, but I was distracted by the woman in the video. Her noises were incredibly forced, and starting to get on my nerves. I eventually had to ask Peter if she was the only woman on the entire disk because I couldn't take it anymore. He flipped forward a bit and found a different scene. I ended up not paying any attention to is since he started to have me suck his cock. By then, I really wasn't thinking about the video too much, just the light moans coming from Peter. He motioned for me to bend over so he could fuck me. I was having trouble reaching my peak the whole time. I had just gotten over some sort of stomach bug or something, and it was still in the process of feeling better. I was so afraid of something not so pleasant happening if I came, that it kind of just ruined the night for me in that regard. Which, Peter fixed for me last night when he allowed me to have several orgasms.
We plan to try it again. The more kinky one we found finished downloading yesterday, so that is in the future for us. We were supposed to play this past Saturday. But, of course, a few hours before he was to come home from work I became very ill with whatever stomach virus I had (and continued to have until Monday night). He has to work twelve hours on Saturday, so maybe I can talk him into some fun either tonight, or tomorrow before he goes to work. Or maybe not, since it seems every time I try to plan something it never works out that way. Which is why I really haven't been updating. There hasn't been a whole lot slave-related to talk about. I doubt anyone who reads this actually wants to hear me bitch about my days in general.
Hope you all are doing well! I will keep updating as much as I can! Please don't forget about me. <3
