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It's been a long time since I last updated. Nothing juicy enough has happened for me to write about, so I suppose I could just give you all a (hopefully)quick update on what has been going on.
I have been dealing with a lot as you may know. The death of my friend, as well as a few different health issues here and there (as well as Peter getting sick for several weeks in a row), so there hasn't been much time to play. And the few chances that we get, you all know about already. Peter and I ended up having a talk not too long ago. I was beginning to get frustrated with the lack of playing, and I decided to talk it out with him and ask him what was up. Honestly, I just wanted to know if he was not only interested in doing it anymore, but if he was interested in doing it with me. He was/is, he said it seemed like I started to want to play all of the time and that isn't the kind of relationship he wanted, so he practically stopped it all. He wants us to have a full passionate relationship, and for our kinky side to just be a section of it....not the whole thing. I agreed that lately I had been wanting it more than before, and I managed to narrow it down to two possible reasons: One, I've been going through a lot lately, and when I'm in that state of mind, I'm not thinking of anything else. This is true for vanilla sex as well, but I get so submerged in the head space that it takes me a little while after we are done to come back down to earth. Meaning I wouldn't feel the heartache for a little while longer. And then two, I still consider myself very new to this lifestyle so I am very eager to learn and do everything. I didn't want to stop until I was properly trained, and he had control over some aspects of me. At the time when we had this talk, I was currently taking antibiotics (for a tooth I was having work done on), therefore making my birth control ineffective, and almost immediately gave me a lovely yeast infection (I tried to get them to give me a different antibiotic that won't do that, but instead they just gave me a prescription for a yeast infection treatment). And of course by the time I was done taking my antibiotics, I was to start the placebo pills from my birth control. So basically I went two and a half weeks of not having my birth control work. So even though we were having this conversation, there was no way we could properly have fun and play.
I'm currently during my second week of birth control since all this crap, so it should be effective by now. And aside from sore knee joints and a head ache, I am ailment free. Which is excellent timing because this Saturday is our anniversary. I'm not sure what we're doing in the morning, but I do plan to give him his gift. We're having a late lunch somewhere downtown, then we will be going to a baseball game. I had told him when we were making plans that if we have a chance, I would really like to see some fireworks. Since our local baseball team does fireworks a lot after night time home games, he suggested that. I'm really excited for it!
Aside from that, things are just....going. A new company took over at Peter's job recently, and since there seems to be a lot of people working there now that have no clue what they're doing, it's taking some getting used to. For instance, Peter now works in the afternoon. Luckily my job is flexible, and my boss is allowing me to work afternoons as well so I will actually get to spend some time with Peter. All we can do is just hope that they put him back on the morning shift, I miss how we used to do things. Although waking up with him and being able to just relax in bed for a while in the morning has been really nice.
I suppose that is all for now. Like I said, there really hasn't been much to write about. The moment I have something though, I will post it! Hope everyone is doing well!
I have been dealing with a lot as you may know. The death of my friend, as well as a few different health issues here and there (as well as Peter getting sick for several weeks in a row), so there hasn't been much time to play. And the few chances that we get, you all know about already. Peter and I ended up having a talk not too long ago. I was beginning to get frustrated with the lack of playing, and I decided to talk it out with him and ask him what was up. Honestly, I just wanted to know if he was not only interested in doing it anymore, but if he was interested in doing it with me. He was/is, he said it seemed like I started to want to play all of the time and that isn't the kind of relationship he wanted, so he practically stopped it all. He wants us to have a full passionate relationship, and for our kinky side to just be a section of it....not the whole thing. I agreed that lately I had been wanting it more than before, and I managed to narrow it down to two possible reasons: One, I've been going through a lot lately, and when I'm in that state of mind, I'm not thinking of anything else. This is true for vanilla sex as well, but I get so submerged in the head space that it takes me a little while after we are done to come back down to earth. Meaning I wouldn't feel the heartache for a little while longer. And then two, I still consider myself very new to this lifestyle so I am very eager to learn and do everything. I didn't want to stop until I was properly trained, and he had control over some aspects of me. At the time when we had this talk, I was currently taking antibiotics (for a tooth I was having work done on), therefore making my birth control ineffective, and almost immediately gave me a lovely yeast infection (I tried to get them to give me a different antibiotic that won't do that, but instead they just gave me a prescription for a yeast infection treatment). And of course by the time I was done taking my antibiotics, I was to start the placebo pills from my birth control. So basically I went two and a half weeks of not having my birth control work. So even though we were having this conversation, there was no way we could properly have fun and play.
I'm currently during my second week of birth control since all this crap, so it should be effective by now. And aside from sore knee joints and a head ache, I am ailment free. Which is excellent timing because this Saturday is our anniversary. I'm not sure what we're doing in the morning, but I do plan to give him his gift. We're having a late lunch somewhere downtown, then we will be going to a baseball game. I had told him when we were making plans that if we have a chance, I would really like to see some fireworks. Since our local baseball team does fireworks a lot after night time home games, he suggested that. I'm really excited for it!
Aside from that, things are just....going. A new company took over at Peter's job recently, and since there seems to be a lot of people working there now that have no clue what they're doing, it's taking some getting used to. For instance, Peter now works in the afternoon. Luckily my job is flexible, and my boss is allowing me to work afternoons as well so I will actually get to spend some time with Peter. All we can do is just hope that they put him back on the morning shift, I miss how we used to do things. Although waking up with him and being able to just relax in bed for a while in the morning has been really nice.
I suppose that is all for now. Like I said, there really hasn't been much to write about. The moment I have something though, I will post it! Hope everyone is doing well!
